.Tuesday, June 28, 2005 ' 8:49 AM Y
dear diary,
first day of school.practially a very bored one,and hardly any on-going lessons.changed our seating arrangements..to a very weird pattern.lols.i have decided to buck up on my studies. =)
i had been studying maths evryday early in the morning at 7 plus.hahs..so contented that i studied sia.before i did my work arh,i sweep the floor,mopped the floor,wash the cups and clean the tables..and i buy breadfast for my mummy.hehs.
gotta take a nap now. =)
.Friday, June 24, 2005 ' 2:59 PM Y
dear diary,
whacked again.i dont know how long more can i tahan.he's driving me up the wall.he dont understand how i feel at all,and i can't help it by feeling this way.with all those bruises,i will never forget the way you treated me.pulling my ponytail,as thou its going to drop down in a few seconds.with bruises like those,is it counted as child abuse?hahas,should be lah.isn't it ironic,trying to urge me to apply medicine after being physcially and mentally hurt?
really feel like ending my life yesterday,haha,but i don't have the guts to do so.but i got over it today and i am glad that i am still alive.so lame huh.leaving just like that will only make him feel guilty,which i think is not enough!yes.i want him to know how i feel in the near future.and i can't bear to leave those wonderful people around me.i love my mummy and i need her.love ya mummy. <3
zing:sad that your grandma had past away,hope you won't be affected by it.get on with life and do what you promise her.i really hope that you won't indulge in those games and get prepared for upcoming major exams.then,she will have a peace of mind.yeahh.tc! =)
.Friday, June 17, 2005 ' 5:43 PM Y
dear diary,
feel so tired..i slept at 6.30am then wake up at 7.30am.meet cheryl at 8.30am for breakfast before going to mel's house for a swim.took 13 but i dont know where to alight..ended up take till kallang arhhs.so we took train back to book keng then take bus there..so niao lohhs.wanted to tan,but no sun lohh..rain summore.swam and play water there loh,then they stupid girl untie that thing lohh.damn retarded can.lols.wanted to go mel's house to change,but her maid not at home arhhs.ended up changing at the stairs there..wah liews.after go home ler,slept at 4pm and wake up at 7.45pm.yeahh.thats it loh.
nights.=)
.Thursday, June 16, 2005 ' 8:49 PM Y
dear diary,
i think i am getting weirder as time goes by.
thou i am not gullible to believe you ystd,but i really hope it was true.but maybe not you.
i miss :
'singing karaoke at home everyday when i was 3
'all the twelve celebrated birthdays i have
'being loved by my dad
'playing along the corridors when i was 7/8
'playing bball,table-tennis and badminton with all primary school soulmates like pui boon,zhi kai,bentink,jiajun,sylvia,rachel and more
'hanging around and bitching away with pui boon
'all my primary school tution mates
'giggling away and laughing at those guys like daryl,chris,ke xiong,chi hwei
'fighting my sitting positions with my friends in kindergarden
'having netball trainings in primary school
'primary school foods
'bitching with tution mates like emily,amelia,sock hoon
'those guys screaming when my chinese tutor used to pinch and turned their ears real hard
'going swimming with my best friend wei chien
'going on cruise with wei chien's family
'eating,shiting,sleeping,bathing,crapping with wei chien
'exchanging presents on our birthdays every year
'playing with gerald when i was in 10
'laughing at new classmates with latifah and pui boon
'SA4E camp when i was 12
'the mahjong sessions my mum had;when i was playing and having sleepovers with wei chien,her sis,my sis and my cousin
'the-temple-hunting sessions both our mothers had
'spending my new year at Malacca
'the dance instructor's screamings and yellings
'being on stage with all dance mates
'performing on every teachers' day with my class
'talking to alex
'me and my sister dresses up in the same outfit
'swimming 50 overlaps w/o much effort when i was 7
'having abcus lessons with pei wen
'hanging out with yonh jie,zhi ying and neh long
'eating pratas with yong jie,zhi ying and wee long
'that distusting way yong jie eats his prata
'going to genting highland with all my cousins
'going out at 1am with my cousin to meet jun xiang and chun kiat w/o telling my parents,and then go back at 6am
'the funeral wake that my great-grand mother had when i was 10
'kelvin kor kor bring me out to shop with my aunt's request
'the UNO sessions at Malacca last year
'the shopping sessions that wei chien's and my family used to have
'going to wei chien's house for sleepover
'eating lo mai gai at maternal grandparents house
'gambling during new year at my aunt's house;with cute guys around
'going to zhi kai's house to eat,dance and play
'playing hamsters at sylvia's place
'watching soccer matches last year with zhi ying and company
'the way vincent stick out his tongue and squatting down on the field eating and drinking
'laughing at "planets" with yong jie and zhi ying
'netball traingings during my sec 1 and 2 life
'watching horror shows with my beloved friends like pui boon and gang
'talking to kian
'smsing brock
thats all that i can think of.i will add on when i remember yeahh.it seems like i dont like my secondary school life huh.uh huh,i really dont like it.my flash-back.i miss those time alot alot alot.how i wish there's a time machine around.enough said,another day i am gonna mention names that i really like. =)
.Wednesday, June 15, 2005 ' 1:58 PM Y
dear diary,
since the past 2 weeks i hardly go out,so decided not to blog.also nothing to blog too lahhs.hmm today went for tanning sessions at Melissa's house with zhiying.woah.nice arhhs,like so long never tan liaos.tehn finally get darker.i didnt even bring clothes to change lohh..just dry up abit nia.Luckily board shorts dry easily arhhs.hahs,then after that went to Prata Place .. hmm not bad lahhs..but their cheese prata not as good as Prata house one.hehs.. but Prata Place got air-con.
ohh yeah,then when i reach home i receive 2 kuku msges.content shall not be said out lahhs.but really very kuku.somebody up to no good.but i dont know who is it sia.hahas.was really laughing out loud lohhs.thanks for the joke too. =)
UNREASONABLE PARENTS!I HATE THEM!THEY WILL KNOW HOW ITS LIKE TO BE TREATED IN THIS MANNER IN THE NEAR FUTURE! *grinns*
is that our friendship?hmm really loh,after that thing arhh,our friendship is like..not as good as before lohhs.once in a while talk on the phone,summore mostly is i call you.all the promises..are known as empty promises right.hope things get over real soon.i treasure the friendship so much.
.Tuesday, June 14, 2005 ' 2:09 PM Y
dear diary,
Eat a lot of brown rice
Give to people more than they expect
and do it with grace
Learn by heart your favorite poem
Do not believe everything you hear, do
not spend all you have and do not sleep
as much as you would like
When you say "I love you", mean it
When you say "I am sorry" look at the
other in the eyes
Keep an engagement of at least six
months before getting married
Believe in love at first sight
Do not ever make fun of other peoples
dreams
Love deeply and with passion. You may
get hurt but it is the only way to live life
fully.
In case of disagreements be fair. Do not
offend
Do not judge others by their parents
Speak slowly but think fast
If someone asks you a question you do
not want to answer, smile
Remember that the biggest loves and
major successes entail greater risks
Call your mother
Say "bless you" if someone sneezes
When you lose, do not forget the lesson
Remember the three Rs: Respect towards
yourself, Respect towards others and
Responsibility for all your actions
Do not allow a small misunderstanding to
damage a big friendship
When you realize you have made a
mistake, correct it immediately
Smile when you answer the phone, who
calls you will hear it in your voice
Get married with a man/woman that likes
conversation. When you are old, your
ability to converse will be more important
than any other
Spend some time in solitude
Open your arms to change, but do not
throw away your values
Remember that silence sometimes is the
best answer
Read more books and watch less TV
Live a good and honourable life. Later
on when you will be old and you will
remember the past, you will see that you
will be able to live it a second time
Trust in God but lock your car
A loving mood at home is important. Do
everything you can to create a loving,
harmonious and relaxed atmosphere
When in disagreement with your loved
ones, give importance to the present
situation
Do not bring up the past
Read between the lines
Share your friends, it is a way to reach
immortality
Be kind with the Earth
Pray, there is an immense power in prayer
Do not ever interrupt one that shows you
affection or kindness
Take care of your business
Once a year visit a place you have never
been before
If you make a lot of money give to help
others while you are still alive. This is the
best satisfaction that good fortune can
give you
Remember that not obtaining what you
want is sometimes a strike of luck
Learn all the rules and then infringe some
Remember that the best relationship is
the one in which the love between two
people is bigger than the need you have
for one another
Judge your success in relation to what you
must renounce to obtain it
Love and cook with some
abandonment "You've got to sing like
nobody's listening
You've got to love like you'll never get hurt
You've got to dance like nobody's
watching
You've got to live like it's heaven on
Earth!"
these are the instructions of life.i shall obey it. =)
.Sunday, June 12, 2005 ' 1:30 PM Y
dear diary,
whenever i heard about the word bonding,the first thing i thought of is netball.hais.really regret for being not in the netball team anymore.its not that i dont like netball myself,its just that somebody told me about that incident that makes me hate it.i really dont know if that was true,but it was really told by a senior!not me,who cock up all the stories alright.i really used to be a netball addict.all my books,pens,diaries,papers..definitely had words about netball.i love it real loads,as in L-O-A-D-S!Hais.but what past is past.Upon seeing all those netball girls so bonded,really feel so envy.hahahs.who to blame?was what she told me the truth?DONT KNOW.no point looking back all the past,no way they are going to accept me.NO WAY!Argghh.Really no words can describe how i feel.I feel so upside down.My feelings are all tumbled up together,making me feel upset.thinking back of the past,i must really say that netball rocks!
i sincerely love netball.alrights,just hope that wss netball girls will excel in their games okaes,so that teachers will not look down on us.NETBALLERS ROCKS! =))
.Saturday, June 11, 2005 ' 2:58 PM Y
dear diary,
she doesnt seems to bother about me.she is only engrossed in her own stuffs.thats only what she does.always full of excuses to turn me down,sometimes i also purposely find things to turn her down lahs,but i feel bad myself.hais.i treat her as a good friend of mine,but does she?is it i too sensitive ler?i dont know.
Happy Birthday Qin Yi!
Have fun and enjoy!
Miss ya lots!
Take care too! =))
.Friday, June 10, 2005 ' 4:25 PM Y
dear diary,
today is the last art lesson in the holiday lers,wohooo!but still need to come back on the 20 June to hand in our final draft.Arggghhh.
went to lunch with ST and WanLi after school,then went home ler.
now i am conferencing with Zing and Desmond.lOls.He really damn cute lohhs.Sec one kidd..hehs.
My mum bought 6 cartons of HL Banana Milk for me.Cool.I can finish it in less than a week manz.hehs.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHI HAI!Hahs..enjoy yourself tomorrow alrights.Jio us out for art drawind too arhhs..hehs.Get your gal back.Take care! =)
.Wednesday, June 08, 2005 ' 11:13 AM Y
dear diary,
was late for art lesson.the lesson was as usual,boring.after that,went to town with zhi ying.then go Far East meet ShinTheng and SuFen.They two was like shopping like hell.SuFen really bought lots of stuffs.lOls.but she looks good in everything lohhs.Zing also look good in everything.Arghhh,so jealous.hehs.they bought me my birthday present..ahahhas.we both bought a short each lahhs.Nothing much lohhss..not like the two of them.hahas.Walked around till 6 plus then go home lers.Take train back and i overshot till woodlands..wahh liews.was dead beat sia.
and i saw this DAMN-IT-CUTE guy.Argghhhh...ultimate cute can!hahas!He wore a purple tee and he got BRACES.WOOT HOOO!CUTIE PIE! =D
.Tuesday, June 07, 2005 ' 1:15 PM Y
dear diary,
went to school for art lessons,then my mum need to see the vice principal to talk about my art and report book lahs.she damn noisy sia.keep on suaning me..say what people at step 9 then me heaven even started.What's wrong with not studying for mid year exams?So many people mugg like mad,yet their results are not that good either.
siao gina.say what i dont have strategies for my studies.saying that reading textbook,looking at notes and even writing out my notes is useless.SHE CLAIMS THAT MIND-MAPPING IS THE BEST.NUTS.
After art lesson,supposed to go fenny's house,but then need to go home asap,so didnt managed to go sia.shall go another day.
Instead,went Junction 8 for art file and drawing block.from afar,i think i saw Gervais.so yeah i told zhi ying.im right.hahas,its really him.he's so cute can!hahahs..my brother.he said it was imprssive to be able to recognise him.after all,i havent see him for like 1 year 5 months.dunno why,just that very deep impression i have.hahas.yum yum yum. =))
since my sis is not around,i can feel that im being loved abit more than usual.fuck.take me for substitue.i really not want it mans.so surprised that they didnt scold me for results.oh well,perhaps another day huh.my mum says the vp is damn noisy.hahs.
can sense that you abit depressed lahs.cheer up bahs.not totally my fault yeah?
.Monday, June 06, 2005 ' 6:34 AM Y
dear diary,
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
. ' 4:23 AM Y
dear diary,
didnt blog for the past few days.wasnt feeling good.had a fight with my parents.they are fucking UNREASONABLE!Cheryl also quarrel with her parents.Hais.Cant they understand how we feel?Typical parents.
Cheryl's mum is so concerned about her loh.She called me this morning and was asking what should she do.Hmm she said she feel so lost.Arghh.if only my mum is so concern about me.Being a parent doesnt means you are responsible or mature lohh.Yeahh,i wont be like them in the near future.I want to be able to talk to my children everything under the sun.In fact,more like a friend to a mother.Yeah.Thats cool.I always hope that i have a nice cosy family.
But its impossible.
ms chin called my mum sia.say what nobody turn up for art.wahh laoo.kuku nuts.hope the VP wont say anything bad lah.Best if she dont return my report book.hais.another week of art lessons.sucks.
i am lost for words too.
